Life.

Drinking: Lots of Earl Grey. It is after all winter.

Eating: Thinking about the lovely meal Alyssa made for me along with the note she left with it. She's a great kid for sure!

Enjoying: When I get days off. I cherish them a lot.

Thinking: I need to make some phone calls.

Wanting: To be in Seattle.

Needing: To understand the Lord and why he has me where he does right now in my life and being patient in that. Yep, patient...

Listening: To the heater running and me typing. I like quiet.

Learning: That sometimes we are placed in situations that may seem horrible and awful, but are for our benefit and others as well.

Praying: I am praying for continued peace to moving forward in my life.

Feeling: Calm. Peaceful. Serene.

There is so much going on within my life. I do always say that don't I?

Here we are at the end of November, where has the time gone I tell ya? It seems to always go by in such a flash especially during the holidays and they are here on our door steps!

And I've been super busy! I picked up a few photography gigs with peeps in our church. It's been a blessing to me to bless them. I am by no means a photographer at all, don't claim to be. I just have a really great camera and a heart for people. So I put it out there and so far have done 5 sessions. The coolest part is that I don't care about the money. Sure its great, but my heart wants to bless people. I do need to learn my camera better and take a photography course or something so I can understand it more. I don't want to become a professional, I just want to be able to bless people.

Work...
I got this job. Not at all what I expected in my life, but it is what it is. After looking for many months coming up with nothing I applied for this job on a whim and didn't think much of it. Got a phone call two days later, had an interview a day after that and was hired literally a week later. I went to the training store for 6 weeks to train. I like the job a lot. It has great perks, good bennies, and I loved the people at the training store. However, I have since moved to my home store and its been a struggle to say the least. While I knew what I was getting in to when I applied, I didn't think it would be such late nights. There are days where I work until 4am. Didn't expect that. And you wouldn't think where I work it would be so detailed and intense but managing a staff of 15 employees with all types of different personalities has been challenging to say the least. I am an assistant manager for Taco Bell. Talk about not where I expected to be. But you know what? God worked on me and humbled me in this job. Although the hours suck and I am not too sure yet (due to it still being new) that I like the location and store, I am thankful in my job.

Trying to balance work and my life has been difficult too. I find myself not knowing my schedule each week. There is a possibility of not being able to attend church due to working and I haven't been to my woman's bible study group in what feels like forever. I hardly see Alyssa as well. But she reminded me the other day when she put a note in my lunch box that we are going through this for such as time as this and to be thankful in it. While I truly am thankful for this job, it has taken me time to get into the routine of it and I am still struggling.  But there are glimpses of peace throughout. I truly am thankful of it and my life, but sometimes its hard. I am taking each day as it comes and really enjoy my days off!!! The company has plans for me and are grooming me to becoming a general manager eventually. Something I never thought I'd be doing either, but I am rolling with it.

I have also met someone. I started dating a bit ago and realized that I wasn't meant to be on this earth and not have a mate. Some people might have issues with this since it hasn't been that long, however everyone is different and after much prayer I decided to jump back into the game. It has been interesting to say the least. Before I met this someone, I went out with a couple of people and even talked to someone far away for awhile. What I began to realize is that there are people from all walks of life and they are in different places within their lives. Most of all I realized that being prayerful was best. You think you find someone and then they turn out to not be who they said they were. I have met a few men who just want to be friends, which was nice, fun, and was just that and ended rather quickly. Then I met quirky men too. Of course it sounds like I've met a ton of men, but I have only been out on a date with three men total. The third one? Totally unexpected. I wasn't going to date someone who didn't live here (tried that for a bit with someone else and it crashed and burned), neither was he. I met him on the Christian site I joined and we became friends. We both were upfront about the distance and decided we'd just be friends. We talked quite a bit on the site back and forth before having personal contact. I gave him my email addy finally because I closed my account on the site I was on (just felt led to do it) and we talked daily through email. Then by chance a friend who I marched drum corps with was coming to Seattle. I hadn't seen him since we were 18! So I packed up my car and headed out there for the weekend. Little did I know my weekend would turn into something wonderfully unexpected. This is where the "someone" lives. I told him through email that I was coming there and we both thought meeting for coffee would be great, so it was planned. I met up with my drum corps friend for one night and spent the rest of my time with that someone! Makes me laugh because I never expected to hit it off with him so well, and I am almost certain neither did he. It was a lovely weekend. Filled with such godliness that I didn't know existed. I can honestly say to you that I've never been on a date much less liked someone who had a walk with the Lord. It was amazing!!!! He is amazing!!! And you know what? He actually really loves the Lord. I mean that is completely new for me. It's refreshing to say the least. Since then, we have visited each other several times and are taking it where the Lord is leading it. Am I happy? Yes. Is this of the Lord? Yes. Just to reassure those peeps who might think I am literally ridiculously stupid, its God's timing and not my own. We are not rushing into anything. The beauty about this relationship and this someone is that he understands and wants the very same thing. For me its about experiencing this something new and the newness of dating and dating someone who has a true relationship with the Lord. I feel like a HS girl who is dating her first ever boyfriend but it goes beyond the giddiness of the emotions of what I am feeling now. It's a solid real thing I am experiencing. Thankfully, I have a God who is in control. So let me share a little about this someone... :) He's older than me. Has a neat job. Has a great extended family. A wonderful son who's 13. He's handsome. His walk is amazingly solid. And he treats me like no man has ever treated me. He is simply amazing, my amazing!!!!

Life for me is crazy, but then again it always is but I am loving right where I am!
Hope your life is uber crazy beautiful too!