What I have learned. What I am learning.

i've learned that cutting sugar out completely means that it is all I will think about, seriously. So I gave up trying to cut it completely out. Because in truth I spent more time thinking about it, wanting it, than I would normally do on any given day that I do have sugar. I am still going to eat "healthy" sugar because it is better for me, however eating no sugar seemed rash to me. I can live without meat but honestly, sugar? I think not.

I've learned that I need to practice what I preach. Which is to talk to the actual person you are having issues with instead of allowing it to harbor. I finally talked to someone recently and was very honest, which afterward I felt released.

I've learned that even as being a girl who calls herself a Christian that I am still prone to being tempted with my past. But with accountability I can conquer it.

I've learned that I am not perfect and yes, when something happens like pressing on my breaks really quickly because the person in front of you slams on their breaks that the word "shit" flies out of my mouth. And yes it's an oxymoron from the fact that I don't like cussing, I don't. Remember I am not perfect.

I've learned to seriously trust the HS within me because 99.9% of the time its spot on.

I've learned that no matter the image I know that God created me is, I will always be flesh when looking in the mirror and not liking certain things about myself.

I've learned that in order to actual heal with someone that your not close to anymore, that you need to actually open yourself up so that they can too.

I've learned that the pain of loosing my mom does lessen. However, there are days where it hits me so strong I can hardly breathe. 

I've learned that I have huge respect for people that are single people who are either parents or not and have to always do it by themselves. Because having D deployed makes me realize how good I have it, seriously.

I've learned to pause prior to speaking to Alyssa because it is effective. And I've learned to walk away too so that I don't say something horrible.

I've learned that you will  never make everyone happy but yourself.

I've learned that even as time moves on the ache you feel from loosing a loved one will forever remain.

I am learning that I need to cherish where I am in life even if that means a valley at this time. Instead of wanting to run through it, I am trying to learn to walk through it and be in the moment of it to learn from it.

I have learned that it is just not that big of a deal to worry, even though I constantly do.

I have learned that laughter truly makes your heart light.

I am learning that even though you might be many miles away from someone it doesn't mean that they aren't thinking of you.

I have learned that it is important to actually listen to someone rather than feeling the need to cut them off and speak.

I am learning that change occurs whether we like it or not, it is how we deal with it and our attitude that helps determine the course.

I am learning to embrace all of myself, even if there are areas where I don't particularly like.

I have learned that friends really do want to be there for you no matter what season you are in because they are your friends.

I learned that I am extremely hard on myself and am learning to let go of that.

I am learning I don't always have to have it together, because a lot of the time I don't.

I am learning that simple is what is best.

I have learned to be content.

I am learning to grow.

And most of all, I am learning to change the way I see things from my own eyes, into the seeing them from the Lord's eyes.

What have you learned or are learning in your life today?