So. I've come to the realization that I need to get back in the gym. While I enjoy doing Jillian in the confines of my own home it isn't enough. I think I've known this for a really long time now. But I've been fighting it. I don't really want to go back to the gym. It isn't because I feel like a cow, or look like one. Or even worry how others will see me. It is because it's effort. Work. Time. None of which I was willing to part with. But I realized the other day that going to the gym has other benefits aside from being fit. I feel better. I have less stress. I have more energy. Etc. But I have already this AM come up with a million ways and excuses to get outta it. Hmph. I couldn't really decide when to go, but think that going right before work is best. I can change there and head straight to work. This way its a set time, but there won't be a lot of people in the gym and I won't have to contend with squadrons of people yelling, 1 2 3 4... Way too many peeps in the gym in the AM for my liking. It's a sea of blue wearin' people. I don't want to go mind you. This fight within my head isn't going very well because I have truly not been in the gym since October of last year. I completely quit in December. And while loosing weight would be great, for me its more than that. *sigh* its one of the pull up the big girl panties and just go. I will look back on this eventually and realize how silly I was being. But for now, I'll fight it tooth and nail.
On top of taking my hiney to the gym, quite literally I am embarking on this. While I am unsure of just how much I am going to dig into this new way of living, I have been really wanting to do different for a really long time. I am in no way a health nut. Although I do try to eat well, there are days where that is all out the window as I shove down anything that is unhealthy for me with a smile. But.. I have been very tired as of late. Dragging. Down. And just plain ole' bothered by what I have been sticking into my mouth. And well? It's gotta stop. I've also been convicted about what I am stickin' into my mouth too because my body is not my own. It is a temple for the Lord and I'm not exactly keepin' that temple healthy. I want to eat better. I want to feel better. I've also been reading about vegetarian things too. While I don't believe I could actually give up chicken, I think I like the other things that go along with the whole vegetarian life style. I can give up beef no problem. But I do like meat. I like chicken and I enjoy eating turkey meat but I could give that up also. I think I just like the idea of eating God's food. The real stuff. The good stuff. So that's really where the change is coming from.
So... There isn't only me to contend with. I've been praying about D changing along right with me. And while admittedly so, he's not as excited as I am he isn't stickin' up his nose about it too much. He realizes as well that we need to do different. A doesn't really have that issue because she'll pretty much eat what you put in front of her.
And of course there is my dislike for cooking. I have earnestly begun praying about just this. And as much as I'd like to tell you its this deep and interesting thing about why I don't like to do it there isn't anything really special, really. I just am lazy when it comes to it. I am not often lazy and its not a word that really describes me, but with cookin' well it does. I would rather someone else cook it for me. I could clean all day long until the cows came home {no offense to beef} but cook? I'd rather not. It isn't fun, I don't enjoy it, and in fact I try to get out of it a lot of the time. But... With this post and with last night, I actually prayed that God would change my heart and attitude about the whole affair. I mean if I am going to get my tail back in the gym, want to do different with food, then I have to meet myself in the kitchen. I have to become a friend to cooking. It will just help in the process. Although admittedly so, when I think about winning the lottery {which I do not play but would love to win!}, I often find myself thinking the first thing I'd hire is a chef. I dream about this more than anything with my winnings... Yeah that's how much I dislike cooking. I find it boring {GASP}. But with that being said...
Comes new.
New going back to the gym.
New eating habits.
And even new I want to love to cook attitude.
That's a hefty feat huh? Not really. It's all about my mind, attitude, and actions all being in sync.
And that my folks is something I am good at.
Here's to new!
I hope you find your new in your life today too, whatever that may be for you!
On top of taking my hiney to the gym, quite literally I am embarking on this. While I am unsure of just how much I am going to dig into this new way of living, I have been really wanting to do different for a really long time. I am in no way a health nut. Although I do try to eat well, there are days where that is all out the window as I shove down anything that is unhealthy for me with a smile. But.. I have been very tired as of late. Dragging. Down. And just plain ole' bothered by what I have been sticking into my mouth. And well? It's gotta stop. I've also been convicted about what I am stickin' into my mouth too because my body is not my own. It is a temple for the Lord and I'm not exactly keepin' that temple healthy. I want to eat better. I want to feel better. I've also been reading about vegetarian things too. While I don't believe I could actually give up chicken, I think I like the other things that go along with the whole vegetarian life style. I can give up beef no problem. But I do like meat. I like chicken and I enjoy eating turkey meat but I could give that up also. I think I just like the idea of eating God's food. The real stuff. The good stuff. So that's really where the change is coming from.
So... There isn't only me to contend with. I've been praying about D changing along right with me. And while admittedly so, he's not as excited as I am he isn't stickin' up his nose about it too much. He realizes as well that we need to do different. A doesn't really have that issue because she'll pretty much eat what you put in front of her.
And of course there is my dislike for cooking. I have earnestly begun praying about just this. And as much as I'd like to tell you its this deep and interesting thing about why I don't like to do it there isn't anything really special, really. I just am lazy when it comes to it. I am not often lazy and its not a word that really describes me, but with cookin' well it does. I would rather someone else cook it for me. I could clean all day long until the cows came home {no offense to beef} but cook? I'd rather not. It isn't fun, I don't enjoy it, and in fact I try to get out of it a lot of the time. But... With this post and with last night, I actually prayed that God would change my heart and attitude about the whole affair. I mean if I am going to get my tail back in the gym, want to do different with food, then I have to meet myself in the kitchen. I have to become a friend to cooking. It will just help in the process. Although admittedly so, when I think about winning the lottery {which I do not play but would love to win!}, I often find myself thinking the first thing I'd hire is a chef. I dream about this more than anything with my winnings... Yeah that's how much I dislike cooking. I find it boring {GASP}. But with that being said...
Comes new.
New going back to the gym.
New eating habits.
And even new I want to love to cook attitude.
That's a hefty feat huh? Not really. It's all about my mind, attitude, and actions all being in sync.
And that my folks is something I am good at.
Here's to new!
I hope you find your new in your life today too, whatever that may be for you!
2 comments:
Fabulous goals.. I always like reading your blog
Get it, girl! Good job on a new self-promise to be healthier!
You can always try weight lifting and yoga. When I'm not in the mood to use up so much energy and get out of breath, I usually go for weights or yoga. Still, I'm exercising and being healthy without the sweat and pain of a typical cardio workout.
Just a tidbit! Good luck to you :-)
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