You know how you pray about something and God seemingly answers.
He will always hear you, know that.
But there are times when he doesn't answer your prayers like you expected.
And that's okay.
He does listen to them. He will honor them. He will answer them.
When I really felt in my spirit that Dayv wasn't going to ever deploy again
I seriously felt that. And I still do. I won't say that I am wrong.
I will say that that the Lord has something else planned.
I don't know honestly what that is.
But I trust God.
Remember when I said he wasn't deploying after all? We were so
excited and happy! I texted everyone and told them that he wasn't going.
We made plans for the summer and things we were going to do around the house.
The fun mini trips we were going to take.
The cool tennis games.
Well. Dayv is deploying.
He leaves May 10th.
And it was a total and complete shock to us all.
However. The guy that was initially going, cannot anymore.
I cannot tell you why, although I do know. But that isn't important.
Then there was another guy they asked. He can only see his children
during the summer and well, he needs to see them.
So that left Dayv.
When I got the call from him he was very angry.
Trying to talk to anyone angry just doesn't work.
I knew though, in his message when he wanted me to call him
that he was leaving even before he utter the words.
That is what 14 years will do.
14 years of going through things like this.
So we went through an entire range of emotions the past two weeks.
Some of it wasn't very positive or pretty.
But I was gently reminded one morning during my quiet time
that I am not in control.
That the Lord knows what is best for Dayv. For me. For Alyssa. For our family.
And although we are okay now, the two weeks were pure torture.
We went through and did the budget, talked about things around the house
that we needed to get finished before the 10th. Whether I should go to my aunt's or not, etc.
He will always hear you, know that.
But there are times when he doesn't answer your prayers like you expected.
And that's okay.
He does listen to them. He will honor them. He will answer them.
When I really felt in my spirit that Dayv wasn't going to ever deploy again
I seriously felt that. And I still do. I won't say that I am wrong.
I will say that that the Lord has something else planned.
I don't know honestly what that is.
But I trust God.
Remember when I said he wasn't deploying after all? We were so
excited and happy! I texted everyone and told them that he wasn't going.
We made plans for the summer and things we were going to do around the house.
The fun mini trips we were going to take.
The cool tennis games.
Well. Dayv is deploying.
He leaves May 10th.
And it was a total and complete shock to us all.
However. The guy that was initially going, cannot anymore.
I cannot tell you why, although I do know. But that isn't important.
Then there was another guy they asked. He can only see his children
during the summer and well, he needs to see them.
So that left Dayv.
When I got the call from him he was very angry.
Trying to talk to anyone angry just doesn't work.
I knew though, in his message when he wanted me to call him
that he was leaving even before he utter the words.
That is what 14 years will do.
14 years of going through things like this.
So we went through an entire range of emotions the past two weeks.
Some of it wasn't very positive or pretty.
But I was gently reminded one morning during my quiet time
that I am not in control.
That the Lord knows what is best for Dayv. For me. For Alyssa. For our family.
And although we are okay now, the two weeks were pure torture.
We went through and did the budget, talked about things around the house
that we needed to get finished before the 10th. Whether I should go to my aunt's or not, etc.
And again in my morning quietness as I poured my heart out to God he
gently reminded me that the military has been good to us.
It is stable and supportive.
Even in times where I want to just scream at someone because of what
they chose to do. The military has been our lives for 14 years {16 for D}.
We picked up right where we always do. Trusting that even though
we cannot fathom him going, it is after all his job. It is after all what God
does best, and he is in control of our lives.
So here we are.
I am on the brink of leaving to go see my gram at my aunt's.
D is on leave for 2 weeks. So when I come back, we'll have 5
days together and then he'll be gone for 4 months.
And no it isn't a long time.
And no I shouldn't complain.
And yes there are other things in this world much more
traumatic and important than whether D deploys.
So we've been taking each day like its our last. You do
that when things like this come up.
We are now at the point where we are anxious to see what
the Lord has planned and to show us those plans by D going.
I am sure that they will be completely fruitful and we will
be able to glean from this, even as hard as it all was!
My prayer is for D's safety. For the 4 months to fly by with
tons of fun for A&I! And for growth.
Because that is what our lives are about, even if we don't like it...
gently reminded me that the military has been good to us.
It is stable and supportive.
Even in times where I want to just scream at someone because of what
they chose to do. The military has been our lives for 14 years {16 for D}.
We picked up right where we always do. Trusting that even though
we cannot fathom him going, it is after all his job. It is after all what God
does best, and he is in control of our lives.
So here we are.
I am on the brink of leaving to go see my gram at my aunt's.
D is on leave for 2 weeks. So when I come back, we'll have 5
days together and then he'll be gone for 4 months.
And no it isn't a long time.
And no I shouldn't complain.
And yes there are other things in this world much more
traumatic and important than whether D deploys.
So we've been taking each day like its our last. You do
that when things like this come up.
We are now at the point where we are anxious to see what
the Lord has planned and to show us those plans by D going.
I am sure that they will be completely fruitful and we will
be able to glean from this, even as hard as it all was!
My prayer is for D's safety. For the 4 months to fly by with
tons of fun for A&I! And for growth.
Because that is what our lives are about, even if we don't like it...
6 comments:
very well said, Elizabeth. Glad you know that God is in control. Sorry he has to go. The life we military wives lead isn't always so glamorous, is it?
Elizabeth, I'm so very sorry to hear the news, I know your heart is so sad. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers and ask God to lift you up as only he can.
(((Hugs!)))
oh, E....
my heart feels so sad for you because I know you and your loved ones had plans. But you have the right attitude, I still struggle a bit when my plans don't come into fruition but turn out totally different: It just wasn't what God had in mind at the time.
I pray that the 4 months come and go, and bring D home safely. I'm pretty sure you and A will have fun and stay busy. hugs!!!!
I am sorry to hear that he has to deploy again. You have such a great attitude and outlook on the matter. It is sometimes hard to remember but God is ALWAYS in control. Do you still think that you will be able to come out for an August visit? What will A do?
That's so stinky that you were told he wasn't gonna go and then out of the blue he has to go. But you've got a very good attitude towards this and I'm sure you'll be blessed. Here's hoping the 4 months goes by fast and he returns home safely!
Very sorry that D is yet again deploying for another 4 months. I know it's not what you want but God is in control and He feels a need for D's duties and service, and God will have all of your backs during this time! Hopefully those 4 months fly by for all of you!
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