The conference.

The other day we went to A's student led conference. It's where we met with one of her teachers and she led the conference. She did an excellent job if I do say so myself! She is exceeding every dream and expectation that I prayed for her for school. It warms my heart to know that she has a different start. A different path. A different plan than either Dayv or I had. We both, admittedly so weren't the best students. So to see Alyssa flourish truly tickles me. Seriously.

After she finished, her teacher said a few things. Well those things might have been few, but they were deep and heart warming all rolled into one. You could tell that he loved having Alyssa in class. That he could see leadership, faith, good morals and values, and spunk. He said something that struck a cord with me. He hasn't been on the only to of said this to me while on her schooling journey. Sure as a parent you think, yeah.. That's my girl. But he said she is going to do well and go far. She is determined. He has no doubts she will not be used somewhere grand. I sat there thinking more about that, wondering what the Lord had in store for this blessing of a girl. I don't know. Seriously. I haven't a clue where her path may go or where it may lead too. But I do know that God has her hand and will lead her no matter what.

He also said something else that I wished someone had said to me. He said grades were important. School was too. But it was what was inside and the stirring of one's heart that meant what life was truly about. Life is important. I smiled thinking to myself ah! someone that understands what I've always felt. Of course I think school is important. But I still cannot help when I stand before my God that he will say, good and faithful servant, you went to school and went far in it. Nope. He isn't going to care about my degree or lack there of. Life to me is more important than that. But.. if I had applied myself more so in school, I could have went further and done great things that way too. So I am not knocking school. School is good.

And then he said something that made me wanted to throw my head back, roar with laughter, and do it out loud... Alyssa loves to write, she is always writing something. Stories. Poems. Plays. Something. He said pointing to one of her grades that writing is hard for her. Interestingly enough. It is always those things that which we love the most cause us to struggle the hardest, I think. He said something then that made me want to laugh and cry in the same moment. Oh, not because it was moving but because I saw a tiny glimpse of myself in Alyssa. She does not change from subject to subject with flow. Meaning she writes a wonderful story and then abruptly changes it without flowing from one subject or paragraph to another. And my mouth turned up into a smile and realized that I too, have that same issue. I do it on here. It is one of the things that I cannot stand about myself. Oh. I don't loath it enough to sit and stew and brew over it. But sometimes after I write something on here, I re-read it and think to myself it sounds as natural as the thoughts in my head. And then I go to another blog and read it and get sucked up into them. Their writing. Their story. And it's more than their story. It's how it flows, no matter what they are sharing. And well.? That doesn't happen with me. And interestingly enough it doesn't happen with A either. I don't even truly mind my bad grammatical errors that I do, but I'd sure like to flow from subject to subject instead of jumping from one to another. And then I sigh because in truth, that is how my mind works. It is how I think. I am thinking of a million things all rolled into oe all the time. And it jumps from something to something in a matter of 5.5 seconds.

So I think had I paid a little more attention to literature, English, or anything that coulda helped with that, then I too might write with flow. But... I didn't really pay attention much in school. I did what I liked and if I didn't like it then it didn't work for me. Band. That was what school was all about. Sigh. Band was great, don't get me wrong. It was my saving grace for school and captured my heart like no other. But if I had pushed myself a little further to do the stuff I didn't really like to do, I might just flow better. LOL.

My prayer is that A push through everything in life with grace and flare even in the subjects she loves but struggles with. Because no parent was ever prouder of their child through this conference. Alyssa you are an amazing girl and I am proud to be your mom. Thank you for blessing me and teaching me to learn!

Journaling 3.6.10
Photos taken on our walk 3.6.10

Happy day everyone!