Closure..

I realized while sitting looking out my window yesterday
that I am having closure.
Sure it's easy to move from a home,
one that you don't own and the military does
to owning your own home.
You know, actually owning it.

And I realized I have issues with driving by our old place.
I went to visit my friend and former next door neighbor the other day.
It was hard to pull up to our old house.
Not really because of the house itself
but because I made the decision to leave all of my
beautiful plants there.
Every. Single. One of them.

There were many reasons why...
The ground was too frozen still, time, effort, etc.
But my biggest reason was that I didn't want any of them to die
had I pulled them up.
I will admit I don't know the first thing about gardening. I just wing it
and pray over every single plant, tree, shrub, or flower I planted.
And my firm resolve has always been "I love giving
back to what God's given us."
and because of this, I've had some beautiful gardens.

But I am sad that I didn't pull at least one of them out.
Why? Because the one plant that my mom bought me was a beautiful lilac.
It is still there at the old house.
But as I sat there yesterday and reflected I got teary-eyed.
I have to be honest, I regret not pulling it up.
I don't know if I can actually go over there and pull it up now or not.
I thought about calling the housing office and explaining myself to them and share
with them about the plant and how my mom bought it for me and now
that she's gone, I'd like to have it and get it back.
But the other part of me wants to let it go.
Leave it there for someone to love and nurture as I did.
I am in conflict about it actually.

I can live without any of the plants or flowers I planted and trust me,
But it is hard being here in the new house without my lilac.
The one that my mom bought.
I am having a hard time with it.

But there is good news as well.
Yesterday while shopping, I returned some stuff to Lowe's and
looked at their bulbs.
I decided to buy some for the house right underneath our kitchen window!
I am pretty stoked about it and planting them because
they will be the first new plants in our new house!

And our neighborhood planted 2 trees {I am unsure of what they are}
in our yard as well!
I named them Fred and Martha. I just
gave them some growing juice today and will continue to do so!
Miracle grow rocks!

Even if I don't end up getting the lilac, I will be starting to plant at
our new house very soon and that brings some solace.

Even if you aren't a gardener,
plant something and allow God to shine upon it!