I am afraid its lost.

 I'm a tad frustrated. I can't even sit in our den anymore and scrap. I am uncertain why I can't sit in there and love what I used to do? It makes it a tad difficult to get work done that's needed to get done. I have deadlines, things I need to get done and yet I find myself not being able too.

So I thought sharing this struggle might help me find my mojo along with getting my butt into gear so I can start doing what I loved to do!!! I miss it, yet find it hard to sit in there and do it. Part of me feels guilty when I do sit in there and attempt to scrap. I am unsure if its due to all of our family photos staring back at me? I don't want this personal thing in my life to affect this area too... I mean really? I am slowly moving ahead in so many ways, yet there is a blockage I can't seem to put into words.

The last time I lost my mojo seriously, I wrote about it on here and am hoping that in doing so now will do the same as before and get me going again!

Ugh... Mojo where did you go?

Right now I am...

• drinking : Will this ever change? Water.
• feeling : A range of emotions. Excited. Tired. Giddy. Frustrated. Empowered. Peaceful. Anxious. Doubtful. Loved.
• wanting : To find some kind of job. I have applied to more jobs than I care too. But I am not worried either, the right job will come along. I'd also like a cup of tea I'm cold but we have no soy and tea is gross without soy milk.
• thinking : Its rather windy out and much like fall rather than summer...
• eating : Veggies. Went to Costco for the first time and went nuts in the veggie section.
• enjoying: I can honestly say the journey I am on. I don't wish divorce/separation upon anyone however this is the first time I can honestly say through this entire journey that I am okay with it. Why? Because I am learning and growing in the Lord and sometimes in order to do that, he has us fall on our knees and strips away so we are able to see.
• listening : Harry Potter 7th movie soundtrack.
• Still: Trying to get my feet wet with scrapping. I want too but it goes and comes quickly. However I have deadlines!!!!
• Grateful for: My relationship with Alyssa. My wonderful friends. God. My tattoos because they are a part of me and each one tells a story. My home because for now it still is and I love it. People who breathe words of life into you. To be going to a DCI show in July. My cell phone, its my life line to those far away.

Hope your days are filled with goodness friends!

Alphabet Soup!

Don't we all love us some alphabets. I know that everyone who scraps can understand needing, wanting, hoarding, using, and collecting letter stickers. I have 3 drawers full myself! LOL. Alphabets play a vital role in this hobby, I can't imagine life without them I love them so! 

Today I wanted to show you a layout I created with alphabets in mind! Now because of how much I love letter stickers, I don't get rid of them no matter how many letters I have left on the sheet. I keep them and know that I'll use them. Long before I was on the Doodlebug Designs team, I loved their letter stickers a lot. I have several sheets of them for sure! Today I used the rest of them I hoarder had.

Supplies: Hello Spring Springtime Stripe papers, Icons Colorwheel, Hopscotch Lily White and Hopscotch Ladybug cardstock stickers, Hello Spring May Flowers papers, Hello Spring Rainbow Jellies papers, Mini Pearls, Mr. Huey Mist, American Crafts cardstock, Fiskars punch, Doodle Twine Primary Assortment.

I didn't have the red letters in there until later, when I realized how cool it would be to add them to spell out a word! I think its pretty neat. So even if you hoard letter stickers like I do, don't be afraid to use them!!!!

Springyness!

While I was out walking the dogs today I realized just how beautiful it is here. One thing I do love about here is the weather! It's definitely a day for relaxin'!

I also have actually been trying to jump back into scrappin. Recently Little Yellow Bicycle 

asked me to be on their spring cycling team and I worked with their cute spring line-Hello Spring!

Here's what I created!

So fun being part of the team and working with this cute collection too!

Card kick

Thankfully before my world turned upside down and I lost my mojo I created some cards!
These are for Pebbles Inc. 

Supplies:

Country Picnic Patio papers (751245)

Country Picnic Meadow papers (751243)

Pebbles Chips Floral Lane (747108)

Clear Stamp (747162)

New Arrival Layered Embellishments (747119)

New Arrival Layered Embellishments (747121)

Toothpick Flags Welcome Christmas (747146)

Toothpick Flags (747159)

Brads Happy-Go-Lucky (747076)

ABC Stickers New Arrival (732064)

Country Picnic Orchard paper (751249)

Country Picnic Cobblestone paper (751244)

Chips New Arrival (744115)

Brads Happy-Go-Lucky (747078)

Paper Flowers New Arrival (741003)

Floral Lane Dimensional Stickers (732054)

ABC Stickers Brown (732069)

Don't forget to hug that special women in your lives!

I just wanted to share. I am doing better. Everyday I heal. Everyday I grow stronger. It's interesting who has come into my life at this time and how important they truly are, they probably won't ever know. I am in counseling and its been amazing, I am going for myself. I am realizing how unworthy I feel, who I am, what I want, the direction I should go in. It is a learning process. There are major things I am thinking on. I have to admit, right now I'm struggling with God. But with all this comes growth. I've always been open to that.. I appreciate each of your thoughts, prayers, and encouragement too. Thank you so very much.

You

Even though my mom has passed away, I thought it would be nice to give my aunt who played an important role in my life growing up a card for Mother's Day. She means a lot to me and I want her to know it so when our assignments came down for Doodlebug Designs it was a no-brainer!

Supplies: Hello Spring Spring Bouquet papers, Candy Dots Gray papers, Sugar & Spice Blankie papers, Doodle Twine Baby Girl Assortment, Flower Brads Spring Flowers and Baby Girl Flowers, Hopscotch Bubblegum cardstock stickers, Mini Jewels Lily White assortment, Mini Pearly Spring assortment, Create-A-Card Square Grid assortment, Snips & Snails Cute Cuts, Sugar & Spice Cute Cuts. 

I sure hope she likes it cause it is filled with love! Remember to love your mom or that special someone that plays an important part in your life too!

Right Now.

Hello friends. Its breezy out. Sunny. Its a day for many possibilities!

Right now....

• Feeling: Hopeful. God is really testing me. Growing me. Stretching me. 
• Drinking: Still water, I'm hopeless..
• Wanting: Peace within. The unease is becoming annoying and I'm frustrated by it.
• Thinking: How much a new normal needs to be present within my life.
• Eating: This is a hard one for me. I am trying to eat.
• Enjoying: Spinets of moments. I am cherishing just the little moments.
• Listening: To much different music as of late. It is really soul filling.
• Still: That's just it. I am standing still because this is where the Lord wants me right now. It is an entirely new process for me.
• I like: New friends. Old friends.
• Grateful for: Time. With time we are healed. I am healing. I feel like the tortoise not the hare. Slow and steady will lead me through this journey.

Just got my hair done! It's amazing how it makes you feel!

Hope you feel amazing too!